JS Chronicles

2009-01-18T20:57:00.002+08:00

4more days to freedom. heh!
my god, these few days has been ultra duper windy. and the weather at night can be quite chilling. BUT! baby's place remains the same. NTH. cant even feel the wind coming in. HAHA! dn put windows at home la baby.

OHOH. and i finally got my passport. lol. nth new to you guys i know. but for me, it's quite a big thing ok? like after 21 yrs... this is wad i have been waiting for. lol to go overseas! and im going back to msia this weekend. i know u have been complaining baby. but bintan and yaya is waiting for us! heh. (:

okok. back to studying m5. test this weds.

2009-01-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

it sure is dusty in here. *coughs*
Anw, im back! hahahaha. and im going to ord soon!! wooooo.
2 more weeks! wahahaha. and FREEDOM FRM THAT DAMN PLACE! but i will miss the guys and Dr Lim. HEH. thanks for the parting gift also. haha

After ord. yes, im gg to work. as wad? well, im surprised by my decision too.
Financial adviser. but im still revising for the test and all. so im still on the way there. Thanks to kelvin for helping me to get the chance. But well, i think it's going to be just a short term decision, before i head back to sch. But nth's concrete yet. so yea..
Hi collin hi agus, im part of you all soon! lets all work hard and earn bucks!

N baby! HI! i updated! hahaha. 6mths soon!!!!

2008-12-25T13:02:00.000+08:00

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!

2008-12-03T21:01:00.002+08:00

baby said this blog is alrdy having the cobwebs. well, im here to clean it up.
Not that i gt alot to say. But i think im being stressed out by "work" la. shit stuffs always happens. fuck
but lucky theres baby to stand by me. Thanks love.
1 more mth!!!
ORD!!!

2008-11-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

my MC has ended! now back to work.
ARGH.
good times just flies

2008-11-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

it has been 127 days.
i love you baby.

2008-11-23T22:19:00.002+08:00

this taiwanese movie: my inspiration..

I seldom watch chinese movies in cinemas, let alone taiwanese movie. But smth abt this show made me wanna watch it. I think that many people will say its boring, dragging and meaningless. But to me, there's so much meaning to it.

Ok, im not good with words. But somehow, i just felt that it taught me many lessons of life. Never to give up on your dreams, even if it's the simplest of dreams. Even if people might say it's impractical and even mock at ur dreams. Just go for it!

And of course wad attracted me is because is its songs. Not classics, but the simplicity of it just pull me in. And how they presented it on screen. Bottom line is, this movie is just not any movie goers. Tt's all i can say

2008-11-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

tmr's my wisdom tooth op! woohoo.
cant wait for the long mc. (5days minimum).

and bb, u are a wonderful cook. wahahaha

2008-11-06T21:44:00.002+08:00

i have been plagued by viruses these few days. ear infection, fever, sore throat, flu. im working in a clinic and im suppose to be clean!! but yet again, it can be the dirtiest place that im hanging out in. the germs are well trained! heh. And with my back pain getting kind of intense these few weeks, i can only imagine myself to be fit again. fit as in you know, physically.

talking abt not able to exercise n all, but yet on the other hand, i have been indulging myself in food! esp with baby ard, i can never stop eating. haha! Just came back frm Ms Clarity cafe. went with the mad club during my bday this yr. Found out that the food there is quite nice, so decided to bring baby there. she loves it. hahah. and so full till i hafta rush back to home release. wahaha.

Anw, taxis' prices have been increased right? but why their services hasnt improved a lil bit. i still cant flag for a cab even though they are available. and on my way home just now, i saw this cab driver stopping for this old guy at the side of the rd. the old man looke rugged, carrying loads of old stuffs of his and he looked as if he hasn bathed for ages. seriously. And the below conversation took place, in hokkien.

Taxi driver: "Where u wan to go?" (in an impatient tone)
Old man: "...." (mumbled some place.)
Taxi driver: "... u got so many things, very troublesome leh. And u got money to take taxi meh? U dont look like u got money leh."

Wind up the window and drove off. Wah lau. if im brave enough and im not in the rush to go home and shit, i wld have punch the taxi driver! wtf.
OR
i shld have just shit on his face just now. hahahah! gross.

2008-10-30T22:01:00.003+08:00

HAHA. all this pictures were done at www.photofunia com

go try it and have fun! hahaha

2008-10-28T21:29:00.004+08:00

OK!
this is my virgin post using my new "old" laptop. wahaha. i was quite surprised when my cousin gave me his old laptop. and he asked me not to use the com inside aunt's rm anymore. otherwise, some arse will start complaining again. oh well, tt's the 'freedom' i have at home. even by using this lappy now, i cant use it for long. tt's wad my cousin warned me abt. later... the arse will talk much again.
But well, still hafta thank him for giving me his laptop. Better than nth!

oh well, IQA's finally over. can slack abit. but nxt mth there will be another one which will be more impt and thorough. but for now. heck la. relax!!

and last sunday was the 1st time i went bb's house to watch soccer with her family. dad included. surprising man! that he never ask any ques or anything. haha.

a gd start ain't it?
(:

2008-10-20T19:07:00.002+08:00

finally gotta meet up with the MI gang. if not, like what chelle said, they will strip my name of their list. How will i not go!? hahaha. brought bb along too. luckily they were able to click. HEH. and thanks for saying all the bad things about me

and finally sang with my besty gang too! it was really nice meetin up again pple!
(:
and

happy 3rd mth bb!

2008-10-05T19:07:00.002+08:00

Boring boring sunday. managed to survive most of the day at home playing my psp and online. heh. Baby went superband finals. ANd!

this weds is my oath taking for my citizenship thing. FINALLY, im really a sporean. and pink ic. and most imptly, passport! though i dont think i will be doing it on the day itself. I WANNA GO OVERSEAS!
Anyway, Yuxuan asked me to join this talentime competition with him. But till now we're not able to meet up together with the other members for practices. Hmmm... Faster can anot bro!

2008-10-04T10:34:00.002+08:00

I FINALLY COOKED
COOKED!!! Wahahaha! i finally cook
U guys know wad i cook?
i cooked.....

porridge with egg and caixin.
=D

that's an acheivement hor!

2008-10-02T20:20:00.001+08:00

1st time i saw a fren on tv upclose. nice one to kelvin la.
but start exercising pls. haha the buffet must have made you bigger
LOL!

2008-09-29T18:57:00.002+08:00

Finally, F1 is over. It was a fantastic and grand show and i certainly enjoyed every moment of it. THANKS TO BABY! even though it's tiring to just stand there and watch, as ours are the walkabt tickets, but still i think it's very worth it. If they are coming back next yr, im certainly to get the grandstand tickets. wahahaha. N im kinda surprised that sooo many pple turned up for this event. Cos all this while, i thought that F1 isnt that popularly in spore. But i was proved wrong for the past 3 days. And hell, there are really lots of rich sporeans. Damn.

now, F1 is over, back to camp again. Zzzz.
and bad news in camp today. Amir's dad had a fall in the morning and was pronounced braindead in the afternoon. Really sad. Just this morning he was talking abt his dad, and this thing happened. N wad's worst, just before hari raya. Sigh.
Rest in peace Amir's dad.

2008-09-24T22:13:00.000+08:00

IM SO GOING TO F1! WAHAHAHA.
Seeing them practice is better than nth. wAHAHA

2008-09-20T12:09:00.007+08:00

sentosa and spore flyer with bb ytd! 2mths!

heh. 1st time on the flyer. spore night scene is actually quite nice, cos of the city lights. but overall it was just ok. thanks to bb's ex colleague vincent for the complimentary tickets. (:

n im like a walking lobster. argh. freakin pain!

2008-09-14T20:45:00.001+08:00

spent the day with bb ytd. went chijmes after almost a whole day of walking to watch the liverpool and man u match. damn kanjiong. BB's heart was pumping! hahaha. mine too actually. LIVERPOOL WON! GREAT! hehe. Hope u enjoyed it bb!

falling deeper

2008-09-14T20:43:00.001+08:00

WAHAHA! Kudos to baby! lol

2008-09-10T22:17:00.002+08:00

these few days in camp are crazy. yes.. it's really tt busy. plus Mdm Ho took 3 days leave, which made things worst.

im tired and lazy to update.
BUT THANKS BB HOR! for updating for me! hahaha
i will update myself soon...

2008-09-08T20:06:00.005+08:00

HAHA! jacky's too busy to update, therefore here i am posting for him. wahahaha! look at those classic pictures!! makes me laugh until i roll on the floor. hilarious shit! so cute some more. gosh. HAHAHAHA. enjoy eh pple. (:

2008-09-04T22:21:00.002+08:00

i love this photo done by yaya totally! hahaha! with me going out with alba! hahahha no wonder BB and her are like making her laptop facing the other side, not wanting me to see what they were doing! haha. we cant stop laughin when we saw this. LOL! well done YAYA. hahaha. fufill kental's wish and help her make one with beckham la ok? hahaha

1st time into NAFA campus. cos BB and her classmates wanna stay back in sch to do their assignments. since i have nth to do, so i just accompany her. quite cool la. yea. But BB's so stress with her work. Relax ok? One thing at a time. (:

2008-09-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

Verse 1:
No problem I can't solve,
In a test of our love,
If your love was multiple choice,
You'd be all of the above,
You're the answer to all my questions,
No need to cheat,
Together we're the perfect score,
You make me complete,
I never seen a woman,
With so much beauty and class,
My heart was always a failure,
Til you helped me pass,
I wanna give you my all now,
No more excuses,
Cause without you in my life,
My life is,
Just useless

[Chorus:]
I played every game in the book,
But you changed my perspective,
And for the first time,
Love, my only objective,
Moments can be feelings,
Things aren't always what they seem,
Baby if I'm sleeping,
Please don't wake me from this dream,

[Verse 2:]
Your heart and I enganged,
In a game of hide and seek,
Since our very first encounter,
I was playing finders keep,
No need to look any further,
Already found my soulmate,
Although it took a while,
You were the whole way,
Girl can't you understand,
That I wanna put a ring on your hand,
I can't say I'm perfect,
Baby we both know I'm not,
But girl I think it's time that we tie the knot

2008-09-03T18:41:00.002+08:00

BB's so busy with assignments that she gt no time to talk to me, let alone meet up with me. HAHA. i miss her cooking, her smile. everything la! pls meet up with me soon alright?

My back problem is really getting worst. Mdm asked me to move some stuffs this afternoon and as it was quite heavy, i didnt really wanna move it. But the other guys are busy with their own things, so no choice i had to do it, otherwise she will start nagging again. So when i kneeled dwn (note, i didnt just bend dwn, i kneeled dwn, which is that correct way right?) to carry that box of stonecasting powder. That was then i felt a sharp pain behind. of course my 1st reaction was to jerk n i drop tt box immediately. Then after my mdm came and help me. And the next appt is so far away! in oct! think right now i can only continue taking painkillers.

Mum's coming s'pore on sat! better mean what she said. otherwise put me aeroplane again. Dont like you know!

Anyway, i have been feeling kind of paranoid these few days. Pls pardon me alright? esp BB. (:

I MISS BB!!

2008-09-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

pick a spot. any spot.
there will only be the two of us.

our world.their fantasies

2008-09-01T19:58:00.001+08:00

why am i feeling like this? why? someone just knock some sense into me. Im bursting. i cant hold on anymore.
this suck. it really does.

2008-08-31T11:04:00.002+08:00

hohoho! Happy birthday to jamas chua. Went to his chalet after baby and i went ecp to take pictures for her assignment. Bloody train ride was so long that my bladder was about to burst anytime after drinking almost 2 cups of bubbletea at a go. The chalet was alright, and it was the 1st time i helped out with bbq-ing. hahah! But baby loves it so much that she refuse to rest. Hmm, we shld start a catering company soon. hahah

AND! sorry besty! cldnt go sing with you ytd! sometime soon ok? after i get my pay! it has been a long time since i sang too! and a long time since i saw you! heh

Wow.. usher is now the strongest man on earth la.. cos
he's moving moutains..
oh oh oh..
oh oh~

:D

2008-08-28T22:12:00.002+08:00

baby and i. call us risk-takers. haha. it was so close wasnt it? but well, we own it. hahaha. had my off today. so used to it to spend the whole day with her. recording of songs, bak kut teh at balstier. heh. happy times! but these kind of moments will be so rare. damn.

and mum always lie to me. say wanna come spore. come come till now also haven come. tsk.
4more mths to ord! for some reason, im starting to fret. fretting over life after ord. abt what shld i do and stuffs? argh.

2008-08-23T17:49:00.004+08:00

ok. i wonder why my blog became a playground for young kids to quarrel here. but amanda, anything u can ask ur sister and me to help you ok? no probs. Young pple nowadays.. hahha. make me laugh. IM JUST TRYING TO HELP! haha.
Anw, baby's cooking is absoulutely FABULOUS!! my god. im missing it even now. and HUNGRY! hahahah. cook more ok? Esp the soup! wahaha.

2008-08-21T21:42:00.003+08:00

damn gd stuff. singing out of nowhere. i guess?

cmon, pple. lets do it! hahaha

2008-08-18T21:36:00.003+08:00

it has been a mth now. time really flies right? But there are so much more to come. Thanks for everything till now. I have been blessed by you. The rights, we keep it in our heart. The wrongs, we learnt from it. Thank you baby.

2008-08-18T20:38:00.000+08:00

this is called a steamtop. nice?! hahahaha

2008-08-17T21:26:00.001+08:00

lazy to blog laaaaaaa. but overall has been fun. and blessful. (:
because of you and everything that happened

2008-08-04T18:58:00.002+08:00

baby's younger sister is really making me laugh. especially last night. haha. goodness. Oh well, this week will be one busy week. with all the overseas patients coming for checkup. freakin tiring la. And i dunno why, tt recently when i wore the gloves, i gt rashes. not really alot of them, but just ard my palm area. damn itchy la.

Also, have been slping late cos of my psp. wahahaha. u know guys+games=late nights. so ya.
tmr's the dreadful tuition session again. If not for the money, wldnt even wanna teach anymore. argh. LAZY! BUT I WANT MONEY!!!

2008-08-03T20:21:00.002+08:00

thanks cherie, hanlin michelle and jacob for the treat at ms clarity. it was nice! thou my food looked like kuay chap. hahaha. me and you shld go someday ok? (:

just reached home frm the mummy. wasnt really that fantastic. but it was still ok. haven even taken my dinner. argh. later maybe?

besty! come back soon! i wanna sing!!

2008-07-29T20:26:00.002+08:00

1st of all. i wld like to thank kelvin, rico, agus, kay, mf, chingyen, keekia, collin, huiwen, yanting, joyce and shuling for the wonderful present. PSP! haha. smth i which i really wanted for a long time, but didnt really have the perfect chance to buy it. Thank you guys so much!!

Spent my birthday with baby and her bro. and kel and rico to watch brazil vs spore at national stadium. wasnt really tt fantastic. but still it's gd to see the brazilians playin in real. Hhaha.

It was one of the best birthday ever. really. and thanks pple for all the wishes. yea. Thanks for making what i thought was just an ordinary day special. (:

2008-07-28T11:27:00.003+08:00

nice right?! haha. but it's just for the visuals. cos im the only one who can consume it! heh. the taste is even nicer i tell you.

thank you. really thank you. (:

thanks joanne(twin) for the teeshirt too.

thanks collin for the surprising thing u did! hahaha. shock the hell out of us!

thanks kelvin for treating me to BRAZIL VS SPORE! hahaha. lets enjoy some world-class soccer later man. look at how they play. and try to use it on fifa to beat me. hahaha!

anw, cini dn have fifa08 anymore. damn it. lol

ytd was filled fun. singing, eating at peplunch.

and happy 22nd birthday to myself. another yr older. another reason to grow up. heh.

i will i will! dont worry.

and the credit of the cake goes too:

HER!

2008-07-24T20:01:00.001+08:00

liverpool.
torres.
spain.
singing.
gary cao.
the utt's commercial.
the shuts.
the movies.
the moments.
the connection?

us..

2008-07-23T18:45:00.000+08:00

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人烟还点着
味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

2008-07-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

highly radiated today. took loads of xrays. dammit.
after took a long trip to my tuition kid's house. haha. smth funny happened on the bus.
was sitting beside this lady and i fell aslp cos i ws really damn tired.
then my head kept droppin to the her side. guess she was quite irritated by her that she gave me a SUPERPOKE!
LOL! yes. she poke real hard at my arm and said in chinese
"Boy, u slp some more, ur head is going to get separated frm your neck."
omg. i was damn embarassed that i didnt dare to fall aslp agn la. Lucky my stop was reaching. after that i apologized to her and quickly got off the bus. heh
so malu can

anw, i really run out of ways to teach my lazy student. can someone pls give me some ideas? it's either im a lousy teacher or that he is plain lazy. he just doesn learn. AT ALL!
ARGHH
tips or ideas? anyone!!

2008-07-20T01:34:00.002+08:00

woke up 9 plus today. went joanne's house for some sushi makin and game playing with her brother. after that caught batman in the evening. not too bad a show. the joker was mean. hahaha
alps cafe-d after that. sang. ate. applaused
and weekend just passed by like that. argh

2008-07-15T22:32:00.002+08:00

woke up feeling feverish today. but gt better towards the end of work. guess it's the place that made me sick. heh
went over to ms after work to meet the twins for dinner and caught Get Smart. Lame and funny show. Had a great laugh. at least it gt me more relaxed after a hectic day.

ok, im drowzy after taking my medicine.
off i go.
Zzzzzzzz

2008-07-14T18:33:00.002+08:00

for the past few weeks, i have been telling my friends that i have become so weak, physically. It's just like only 1yr plus ago that im still able to swim, run and play soccer. But just now, when i was assisting Dr Lim for op, 2 ops at one go in fact, i found myself damn tired. Yes. doing 2 ops at one go is tiring, even Dr Lim said so. But i didnt expect myself to be THAT tired. i cant stop fidgeting cos i cant stand for long. My knee and esp. now my back will still hurt.. to the extend that i need painkillers to stop the pain. i have never imagined myself to be that weak and so prone to injuries. Jus last night i slipped and scraped my toe, which was still bleeding till this morning.
I miss the past when i was able to play soccer the way i want to, and jump ard and all. But it seems kinda difficult now.
Damn.
maybe i shld just stick to more indoor activities like singing. and boardgames? haha.
AHHH!!

2008-07-13T11:19:00.002+08:00

LIST OF THINGS I REGRETED NOT DOING IN YEAR2008
1. Not going to caoge's spore concert ytd.
(to be continued...)

DAMN!!!
DAMN!!! why didnt i go and get a bloody ticket to one of my favourite singer's one and only concert ytd??! AHH! Joanne called me during the concert and let me listen to his songs. Im in awe. It was live!! But not live to me. U get wad i mean? i gotta be there to fully listen how he sings and carry out his songs. nvm nvm nvm,, next time. I SWEAR I WILL GO! and of course, jay chou's. if there's any of his.

and recently, i took an xray of my back. cos there's this sharp pain which has been bothering me for weeks at the right side of my lower back. So i went sembawang medical centre to take my xray after seeing my camp's MO. well, the xray showed that my lower spine, there's this part which shifted inside, thus causing the pain. But he wasnt really sure wad was it, so he referred me to a specialist at MMI. Well, lets see whats the diagnosis.

2008-07-05T11:06:00.002+08:00

just read this blog that vic sent me. it's the blog of the girl whose bf was the guy who passed away in brunei while he was there for his overseas training.
While reading her entries, i came to realise that to us outsiders, it was just another person who passed. But to her, and the guy's families and friends, it was a disaster. a tragedy and a scar which will remain in their heart forever. It was really quite sad to read what she was going thru and all.
How is she going to get over it. I guess it will be damn hard..But with all the encouragement and help she is getting frm the pple around her, hope that she will be strong and get thru it quickly.

Recently i had this sec sch senior, whose bf was also one of the dragon boaters who passed away in that accident in cambodia. i think? yeah.

All these tragedies had better teach pple to cherish their dear ones more. (including me). You never know when they might gone from your life. forever and not coming back.
Just take for example, my mum and I. For these few yrs, i have felt as though i have been taking my mum for granted. She working hard in msia, and supporting me thru sch and all. Thou now im no longer taking money from, not that often at least, i gotta think of our future. Like wad if one say she's not able to work anymore. Do i even have the ability to support her?
The bottom line is i gotta work hard. As simple as that.
To be honest, i can't say that she's the perfect mum. There were times i felt so distant frm her. Like.. where is she now and stuffs. where's the support i needed frm her, as a mum. N i really the times when she wld blame me for everything that goes wrong even thou i tend to be the victim.
I wld really just screamed at her and the quarrels wld start again.

But still, no matter what. she's my mum. Her health is deteriorating. Overworked? maybe. I wldnt know. she wont tell me anything. even if i asked.
Mum, u gotta take care.u gotta wait for me and give me a chance to prove to u that im capable of doing things, alright? (:

2008-07-05T09:33:00.002+08:00

it's 937am. Time really passes so slow when u are serving your extra duty in the goddamn ops room. LOL.
to think i took a long nap, only to wake up and found that i have actually slept for half an hr. omg. i have got like till tmr 8am. please!
someone save me from this damn freakin boredom!!!

2008-07-04T17:45:00.002+08:00

isn't she angelic? elva oh elva...

anw, just went to sembawang to have my xray of my back taken. have been giving me problems for the last few weeks. so think its better to get it check.

AND

tmr's my extra duty....argh. another duty will be on 26thjuly!!!

which means!! i cant' celebrate my bday!!! AHHH!

2008-07-02T18:43:00.002+08:00

it's how sad that i cant even chase a bus now. But i still need tried to run for it and my knee hurts. Guess it's physio-time all over again. If it still doesnt get any better, like wad the physio said, i better go do a re-construction. Tt was wad the previous physio said la. but now tt she's gonna ord, i will see wad the next physio will say. Hopefully, he or she will be better. cos the previous one suck totally.

Today had a change of 2 new DOs. Dr Louise and Dr Nijam. Got to assist dr nijam today. haha. one liverpool fan in dr ng went off, another liverpool fan in nijam came. haha. seems like it's a cycle huh? He told dr lim that we clicked very well cos our conversation only revolves ard soccer. But tt's only for today doc. hahaha.

Ok kel just msged saying he came back frm msia
Guess he wans to play fifa soon. HAHA!

2008-06-30T19:18:00.002+08:00

gluttony oh gluttony
how you made me ate 10 slices of pizza, 6 drumlets and chicken wings.
hahaha. it has been such a long time since i ate tt much. all because it was dr desmond's last day in the centre. He will be posted to CGH. so we ordered rite pizza. It was quite gd. which i think it was actually better than pizza hut and canadanian pizza. You guys shld try it one day.
My stomach is really big now. and i really need to carry out by 100-crunches-per-day reigme. haha. everymorning. I MUST DO IT! TO GET RID OF TT TUMMY!

AND YEAH! SPAIN WON EURO! and as expected, torres scored and was the man of the match. But as i was watching the match, bloody rico was snoring away. and im left alone to cheer silently. haha. but still was happy that they won. being dubbed as underachievers frm the start. They really did enuff to prove many wrong. WOOHOO!

2008-06-29T14:38:00.001+08:00

lif has been a bliss! hahaha
spain is in the EURO finals. has been watching the movies i wanna watch.
slacking around.
but still hafta work. eeee
and of course singing. but not yet singing at my best.
GOTTA TRAIN UP MORE!

and im getting lazier to blog nowadays.
or has my life got uninteresting.
hmm

2008-06-17T19:39:00.002+08:00

The Ten Most Dangerous Mistakes YOU Probably Make With Women

MISTAKE #1: Being Too Much Of A “Nice Guy”
Have you ever noticed that the really attractive women never seem to be attracted to "nice" guys?
Of course you have.
Just like me, I'm sure you've had attractive female friends that always seemed to date "jerks"... but for some reason they were never romantically interested in YOU.
What's going on here?
It's actually very simple...
Women don't base their choices of men on how "nice" a guy is. They choose the men they do because they feel a powerful GUT LEVEL ATTRACTION for them.
And guess what?
Being nice doesn't make a woman FEEL that powerful ATTRACTION.
And being NICE doesn't make a woman CHOOSE you.
I realize that this doesn't make a lot of logical sense, and it's hard to ACCEPT... but GET OVER IT.
Until you accept this FACT and begin to act on it, you'll NEVER have the success with women that you want.

MISTAKE #2: Trying To“Convince Her To Like You"
What do most guys do when they meet a woman that they REALLY like... but she's just notinterested?
Right! They try to "convince" the woman to feel differently.
Well, I have news for you... YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE HOW A WOMAN "FEELS" WHEN IT COMES TO ATTRACTION!
Never, ever, EVER.
You cannot CONVINCE a woman to feel differently about you with "logic and reasoning".
Think about it.
If a woman doesn't "feel it" for you, how in the world do you expect to change that FEELING by being "reasonable" with her?
But we all do it.
When a woman just isn't interested, we beg, plead, chase, and do our best to change her mind.
Bad idea. One that will never work.

MISTAKE #3: Looking To HerFor Approval Or Permission
In our desire to please women (which we mistakenly think will make them like us), us guys are always doing things to get a woman's "approval" or "permission".
Another HORRIBLE idea.
Women are NEVER attracted to the types of men who kiss up to them... EVER.
Don't get me wrong here.
You don't have to treat women BADLY for them to like you.
But if you think that treating a woman well means "always getting her approval and permission for things", think again.
You will never succeed by looking for approval. Women actually get ANNOYED at men who seek their approval.
Doubt me? Just ask any attractive woman if Wussy guys who chase her around and want her approval annoy her...

MISTAKE #4: Trying To “Buy” Her Affection With Food And Gifts
How many times have you taken a woman out to a nice dinner, bought her gifts and flowers, and had her REJECT you for someone who didn't treat her even HALF as well as you did?
If you're like me, then you've had it happen a LOT.
Well guess what?
It's only NATURAL when this happens...
That's right, I said NATURAL.
When you do these things, you send a clear message:
"I don't think you'll like me for who I am, so I'm going to try to buy your attention and affection". Your good intentions usually come across to women as over-compensation for insecurity, and weak attempts at manipulation. That's right, I said that women see this as MANIPULATION.

MISTAKE #5: Sharing“How You Feel” Too Early InThe Relationship With Her
Another huge and unfortunate mistake that most men make with women is sharing how they "feel" too early on.
Attractive women are rare.
And they get a LOT of attention from men.
Most men don't realize this, but attractive women are being approached in one way or another ALL THE
An attractive woman is often approached several times a DAY by men who are interested. This translate into dozens of times per week, and often HUNDREDS of times per month.
And guess what?
Attractive women have usually dated a LOT of men.
That's right. They have EXPERIENCE.
They know what to expect.
And one thing that turns an attractive women off and sends her running away faster than just about anything is a guy who starts saying "You know, I really, REALLY like you" after one or two dates.
This signals to the woman that you're just like all the other guys who fall for her too fast... and can't control themselves.
Don't do it. Lean back. Relax.
There's a much better way...

MISTAKE #6: Not “Getting” How Attraction Works For Women
Women are VERY different from men when it comes to ATTRACTION.
You need to accept this fact, and deal with it.
When a man sees a beautiful, young, sexy woman, he INSTANTLY feels a sexual attraction.
But does the same apply for women?
Do women feel sexual attraction to men based mostly on looks? Or is something else going on?
Well, after studying this topic for over five full years now, I can tell you that women usually have their "attraction mechanisms" triggered by things OTHER than looks.
Have you ever noticed that you see a lot more average and unattractive men with beautiful women than the other way around?
Think about it.
Women are more attracted to certain qualities in men... and they're attracted to the way a man makes them FEEL than they are to looks alone.
If you know how to use your body language and communication correctly, you can make women feel the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to you that YOU feel when you see a hot, sexy young woman.
But it's not an accident. You have to LEARN how to do this.
And ANY guy can learn how...

MISTAKE #7: Thinking That ItTakes Money And Looks
One of the most common mistakes that guys make is giving up before they've even gotten started... because they think that attractive women are only interested in men who have looks and money... or guys who are a certain height... or guys who are a certain age.
And sure, there are some women who are only interested in these things.
But MOST women are far more interested in a man's personality than his wallet or his looks.
There are personality traits that attract women like a magnet...
And if you learn what they are and how to use them, YOU can be one of these guys.
YOU DO NOT have to "settle" for a woman just because you aren't rich, tall, or handsome.
Let me say this again: If you know how to use your body language and communication correctly, you can make women feel the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to you that YOU feel when you see a hot, sexy young woman.

MISTAKE #8: Giving AwayAll Of Your Power To Women
Earlier I mentioned that it's a mistake to look to a woman for approval or permission.
Well, another similar tactic that a lot of guys use is GIVING AWAY THEIR POWER to women.
Said differently, guys try to get women to like them by doing whatever the woman wants.
Another bad idea...
Women are NEVER attracted to men that they can walk all over... Women aren't attracted to Wussies!

MISTAKE #9: Not Knowing EXACTLY What To Do In EachType Of Situation With Women
Now I'm going to blow your mind...
A woman ALWAYS knows what you're thinking.
Women are approximately TEN TIMES better than men at reading body language. That's ten TIMES.
I know, it might be hard to believe. But for example, if you're out on a date with a woman, and you want to kiss her, she knows it.
And if you don't know exactly what to do and exactly HOW to kiss her, and you just sit there looking at her and getting nervous, she won't help!
And this goes for ALL aspects of women and dating...
Approaching a woman, getting her number, asking her out, kissing her, getting physical... everything.
If you don't know what to do in each situation, you will probably screw it up... and LOSE EVERYTHING.
And you KNOW it.
It is VITALLY important that you know EXACTLY how to go from one step to the next with a woman... from the first meeting, all the way to the bedroom.

MISTAKE #10: Not Getting HELP
This is the biggest mistake of all.
This is the mistake that keeps most men from EVER having the kind of success with women that they truly want.
I know, guys don't like to make themselves look weak or helpless. We don't like to ask for help.
Hey, I've been there myself.
Let me tell you a little about me and how I figured out how to be successful with women...
About five years ago I became fed up with the fact that I didn't know how to approach, meet, and get dates with women that I was attracted to.
It frustrated the hell out of me.
One night I was out with a friend, and I saw a woman I wanted to ask out, but I just couldn't get up the nerve to do it. I can still remember that night... right on the spot I made the decision to do whatever it took to learn how to be successful with women and dating.
Well, after a lot of hard work and trying all kinds of crazy things, I finally figured it all out.
I can now approach just about any woman and get her number almost instantly. I've dated models, I've dated actresses, and I've dated nice, normal, regular girls as well.
It has been a very rewarding experience. I no longer feel that sick, insecure feeling... like I don't know how to meet women... and I might wind up alone.
I know that anytime, anywhere, I can go out and meet attractive women.

Just came across this article where this guy is promoting is 3-times-a-week newsletter that teaches any guy how to increase his success with women DRAMATICALLY. LOL!
quite true quite true. hahaha

but i didnt subscribe of course duh.
i swear. haha

2008-06-15T13:29:00.002+08:00

david villa was the hero again for spain's dramatic 2-1 win over sweden ytd! we were pratically at the edge of our seats thru out the whole match la! it has been a long time since i seen a football match like that! it was great stuff end to end. hahaha

ok. the day started quite early, with me, ian, hanlin, cherie and michelle gg to the zoo. it was damn crowded and we cld see cars parked all the way outside the entrance and it was quite a long chain also. maybe it was during the hols and wkend as well. Didnt manage to see alot of animals cos it was really too crowded. and ian was busy searching for the cute animal trainer. hahaha! and in the end, we found her at the feeding show with the lions.

after more walking and making funny bird noises, we left the place to go to marina sq

went over there cos gt secret recipe and ian's friend is the in charge of the whole secret recipe chain. so we can get reservations and discount as well. hahah! overall the food was not bad. and it's not because we were too hungry. it was really not that bad.

then! we went on to collin's singing comp finals, which was at the dbs auditorium at tanjong pagar. the stage was like really.. small. But anw, tts not impt. the impt thing is that.

collin did really well! but he didnt even qualify for the top 6, where they are able to perform another song on their own. and yet! some other lousy guys gt in. and im serious. thou im not the judge. and my frens are not the judge, all of us gt the eyes to see it. oh well, it's too late and their decisions was final. so heck it.

He still won the best duet anw! GD JOB BRO!

and a shoutout to besty: take care besty! drink more water and pls be more careful when u are driving ok?! (:

2008-06-13T17:41:00.002+08:00

YTD! was my 1st tuition session with this primary5 kid. haha. im his CHINESE teacher. hahaha! who can imagine me teaching when me myself cant even imagine myself teaching or giving tuition. It was my 1st time, so there were times that i was kinda stuck and didnt know wad to teach him or how to carry on. But slwly slwy, i got the hang of it. Well, most imptly is to talk to him like a friend! I kept asking him if he was afraid of me. LOL! and each time i asked, he jus smiled and shook his head and said
"no la.. i more scared of my mother."

hahaha! but can see that his mum is very strict towards him. so well, i can only try my best to help him improve his chinese. if everything goes well, she might even let me teach her 2 other younger sons. good good. which means more income.. HOPEFULLY.

And i was so unlucky ytd. there was checking of bags when i booked out ytd. so me being me, who dont pack my bag, had my ipod charger inside. And the RP checked very thoroughly thru my bag and found the charger. so he confiscated it and i had to report to my mdm today.
the verdict? 2 extra weekend duties.
AHHHHHHH!!!
dammit.

2008-06-11T18:44:00.002+08:00

YEEHAA!

went to watch spain's match against russia with kel and huiwen at boonkeng mac

they won 4-1! heh. and apparently, david villa became huiwen's favourite player for now because he scored a hat-trick. hahaha. but it was a gd match overall. minus the lack of sound. dunno why the mac tv no sound also.

hahaha. ok. now im preparing to go out to watch portugal vs czech with the same clique at the same place. lol!!

BYE!

2008-06-09T21:56:00.001+08:00

Can someone pls enlighten me.

why koreans are so damn talented? and apparently he is not the only good one. there are still so many more who can dance and sing and beatbox like crazy!

talent +hardwork can really bring you very far.

2008-06-07T14:48:00.001+08:00

the starting song of my playlist is actually sang by christina aguilera. but came upon it when i heard it frm xing guang da dao. so just wanna share with you pple.

2008-06-03T18:36:00.003+08:00

ok. im feeling so drowsy now when im typing this. cos i just reported sick today for my cough which i think it was quite serious. and my MO gave me this cough syrup. the effects are really strong. now i understand why my frens in camp are saying that cough syrup can make you "steam". LOL. which basically means getting high.
really dizzy and all la. must slp early later at night.

and careless me got poked by a needle today again. Mdm asked me to go for bloodtest and all just in case. and so i went. waiting for the results. dn think anything will happen la. cos the patient looked normal? hahaha

it has been a few days. i know you are coping well and i hope u are well too.
i miss you.

2008-06-01T15:32:00.002+08:00

I dunno whether you guys have heard abt this girl before.

Charice Pempengco

She gt really famous when she joined this korean's talent show when she was ard 11? or maybe 10. haha. i dunno. and she caught the attention of many ard the world. SHE'S REALLY ONE HELL OF A SINGER. at such a young age. she really can go damn far la.

OMG OMG OMG OMG.

enjoy the 2 vids above. really.

2008-05-31T16:04:00.002+08:00

You don't know how sick you make me
You make me fuckin' sick to my stomach
Every time I think of you, I puke
You must just not know--whoa-whoa-whoa-whoa
You may not think you do, but you do
Every time I think of you I puke

HAHA! not saying anyone in particular la. just that wad happened last night just reminded of this eminem's song. Funny song btw.

Ok. let's get back tp topic.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOHAN AND ISABELL!

both of their bdays fell on the same day. cool right? haha.and to celebrate johan's bday, the usual clubbing gang--me jo, kel and rico- plus lq and his frens went to phuture ytd. saw quite a number of pple there too. huihua and clare were over there too.
OK. it has been a long time since i went clubbin, esp at zouk. and i didnt know that the cover was 33bucks! and i didnt know the gents have condoms dispenser. haha. until kel told me.
think that's how he lost 100bucks in zouk the other time. LOL!

so we were drinking and drinking like nobody's buisness. were playing number guessing among the 4 of us. and i was the biggest loser. downed many shots at one go. omg. and im such a bad drinker. Was really getting dizzy and all alrd.. then after that ferisha came with of her fren. think the name was yvonne? wadever. the moment she passed me another shot. i PUKED!!!
right inside phuture. that wld have been one of the most embarassing day of my life!! my god. so paiseh la. and to puke in frt of the girls. UP ANOTHER EMBARASSING LEVEL!
but after that puke. i became more sober la. and started to dance with jo they all. kel was getting bored. jo was doing his thing and rico was taking up space without falling aslp.
gd job buddies. heh

and after that, went for supper. even went eating supper. i was still blabbing nonsense away. think kel was irritated by me and punched me a few times. lol.
reached home. ko-ed straight away.
johan u better have had fun last night. otherwise i dunno wad to say anymore.
u know wad i mean. hahahaha

WHERE MY PARTY PEOPLE AT?!

sorry for calling you so late in the night and talking all tt nonsense.
but despite me being tipsy and all, i still fully got wad u trying to tell me.
dont worry

2008-05-28T22:08:00.002+08:00

it just felt so different.
i rmb frm the start, i always looked foward to wednesday. but after so much, it just felt different.
had wanted to tell u just now. but the timing wasnt right i guess.
or was it fate? ha. i dn wanna start on these kind of bullshits u know wad i mean.
i just felt.. weird.
just not used to it.

it has been a crazy span of time my god..

2008-05-27T19:01:00.002+08:00

glad mum is feeling better now after some small accident that happened to her last night. everytime smth happened to her, i will feel very frustrated for the fact that im here in spore and i cant go over to msia to see her. so i really hope that she can take better care of herself. smth which she is quite poor at. oh well.. wad can i say? the mother is just like the son.

smth happened in camp which i dont think will be convenient to say it out over here. it's regarding one of the new guys who was just posted to us. He better be truthful abt wad is happening to him. otherwise, the situation is gonna be real bad.

had wanted to go fetch ms D home frm sch cos it was raining, and knowing her, she wont bring an umbrella out. And at the same time, see if she wanna have dinner since my aunt's not cookin. but since she said she's going with her classmates for dinner, well. then i just go and settle my dinner myself.
Ever since she started sch, the times we meet has been getting lesser and lesser, cos she's busy with her own stuffs and all. On the other hand, im like so free compared to her. everyday 8-5. and these few days, i have been complaining abt the times we meet and all. I know it's not very understanding of me to do that.
really sorry abt that ms D. the simplest excuse or reason i can think of is that i just wanna spend more time with you.. u know. to get over it. yea

but u're still my ms D
(:

2008-05-26T03:12:00.002+08:00

it's 3plus. but not feeling tired at all. am at rico's house. and ms D just slept. didnt really had a gd day. yea.

nothing's the same anymore.

2008-05-21T19:30:00.002+08:00

what a bad way to start my day. this guy who was standing near me and with many pple in front of him vommited in the bus. just when we were abt to alight. my god.. didnt really kena me. but my shoes were abit stained and my hand was sploosh by his vomit also.
then i took out my packet of tissue frm my bag, which have not much left. had actually wanted to use it for myself. but i just gave it to the guy la, seeing that he need it more than me. after that, i just rush to the nearest toilet in camp to wash myself.

when i was on the way home, then i realised that my shirt got some of the vomit also la. i almost died. hahaha. damn disgusting la.
other than that, the day is still the same. boring as ever. only that mdm chan came back frm HK and bought us the famous doughnuts frm over there. it was nice. but too sweet. really too sweet! tt i kept on drinking water after eating 3 of it. HAHA! yes. 3. it saved me my trip to the cookhouse for lunch. and Dr Lim was complaining that we didnt leave some for her. alright.
we didnt know who finish it. but serve her right! for not inviting us to her birthday chalet.
LOL.
nvm. u are forgiven for bringing us ur leftover drinks. heh

going rico's house later for the CL finals.
bye

2008-05-20T19:49:00.005+08:00

Overdued ktv pictures with besty and glyn! It's always fun time when singing with 2 of them. plus collin who for some reason didnt join us that day.

Have been feelin damn tired these few days and also aching ard the body. plus cough and flu. wad a combo.

Anw, ard 6mths+ to ord. so hafta keep a look out for courses. and part time jobs too. Asked hanlin abt teaching tuition and she said she can try asking her students if they need tuition in chinese too. HAHA. think i can only teach chinese la. that's like my best subject when i was in school.

for the courses i wanna enrol in, most likely will be mass comm? thou i will still be keeping my options open for now. Yup.

Alright, time for dinner.

bye

what you did made me not wanna go home at all.

fuck off

2008-05-08T18:59:00.002+08:00

felt kinda sick today. so went to see MO again. abit feverish and had a really bad flu. So practically, i just spent my time in camp with my eyes nearly closed. cos the medicine will cause drowziness. and mdm just simply wont let me go.. say what
"shortage of manpower la, i need u to help me run errands."
fine. i jus stayed lor. and spent most of the time slping in the store room. heh

saw the report on newpaper abt the cyclone that happened in myanmar. i didn't know the extent of the damage till i read abt it just now. my god. 22,000 dead. 45,000 and counting missing.
this is worst disaster that happened ard this region since tsunami.
hope the US government will stop blaming whoever is to blame and send help there fast.
really felt sad for all the victims. we can only imagine their pain.

and heard frm azmi just now that he was being shortlisted to go over there to help out. well, dunno dental will have to be activated anot. let's see la huh

2008-05-07T13:40:00.001+08:00

Someone cries and it washes the street with tears
But when they are mine, they collect in my head for years
Rain or shine, still I'm standing on all I said
'Cause it's in my soul, carry on when the feeling's dead

[Chorus]But if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try
I'll be there in the morning to pull you through

Someone dies late at night and I never know
And even if I did, so afraid of the face I'd show
I feel trapped and enslaved to this dark contrast
Need a feeling now, give me something that's going to last

2008-05-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

im out of the semis. collin's in! last min cos someone gt disqualified. im happy for him. but at the same time.. unhappy for myself.
not im trying to pity myself. maybe i really deserve it. why?
cos i dn heed advices. glynis asked me to change song. but i didnt. cos i know i cant do it last min. the song "jie tuo" is slw and boring and without climax. i shld have known. it's too late.

im just quite sad tt i wasnt even given a 2nd chance to go on stage and fight for the last 4 places.
this prove that im not gd enough. thanks to miss d, she made me felt that all is not lost. though i dunno when the nxt chance will come.
i just wanna have another shot
another chance to make up for lost time.

2008-05-01T22:45:00.002+08:00

the weather these few days have been a killer.
feel so lethargic. and dunno wad to wear for semis. my god.
and im so lazy to prepare for it.
what are u doing jacky?!
and it's this sat.
shakes head.

2008-04-21T19:22:00.001+08:00

how i wish i was this musically talented when i young.

omg

2008-04-17T19:26:00.002+08:00

i dont think i will touch wantons for a couple of weeks from now. for the fact that i just ate tons of wantons for dinner just now! i think ard.. 20? i have no idea why aunt cooked so much wantons!! and there's only me, my cousin and my aunt herself.
i wanted to leave the dinner table alrd and she said
"cmon.. eat more. best is to finish everything"
so i just obediently kept on eating.. and plus 2 cheese hotdogs. my god.
my stomach i think grew by another 2cm la. look like a big wanton by itself alrd.

today was really a long day.
afternoon 2 long cases. crown cases.. tt's why.
and doory asked if crowning means putting jewels and diamonds on e teeth.
o.O

ahhh. my tummy's crackin up.
BYE!!!

2008-04-14T19:49:00.002+08:00

this week is going to be REAL slack. relatively la. cos both mdms are not here! haha. can take our time and do our things, and hope that there wont be too many walk-ins. wahahaha! tt's how lazy we are! cmon. even the DOs are supporting our thinking. lol
my thraot ache is back! and it makes swollowing even harder. let alone drinking water. it feels as if smth is stuck there. i guess it's a lil swollen now. if this persist, gotta see the doc. dn wanna risk it especially the semis are coming.
and talkin abt the semis, i haven bought my clothes and shoes!! (and again, im not gg to leave out the fact that army pay suck.) my god. wad am i suppose to do man. and another thing is that i need an image consultant seriously. hahaha. really la! im not very gd in dressing up. so i need ideas.
pls feel free to tell me ppl!!

And ya, regarding my last post, i know it's kinda washing dirty linens in public. i mean, who doesnt have their own probs in their family. everybody does, it's just a matter of how to face up to it. i only poured it all out becos i felt reallu cooped up inside. but everything's stable now. but it doesn't mean it's fine. yea
but right now, i just wanna live my own life.

2008-04-07T20:14:00.002+08:00

what is wrong with me? i wish i knew. it's like, i have been staying in this house for so long. i cant say that nth has changed for the better. it has, to a certain extent. They say lighting never strikes twice. But in my case it does. as a matter of fact, 2 3 4 5 ... times! i can never understand them. they cant never understand me. it's not that i dont try to communicate. but it's that they never wanna recipocrate.
i swore i talked nicely to them..but wad did i get?
cold and irritated replies. i admit they are not always like that. but just sometimes, they will treat as if im not there.
yes.. i got a bad temper. but it has become better over the years.
and many times i told mum that i wanna move out. but she asked me to tahan. how long am i going to tahan?
i dn wanna go back to a place which i cant call home anymore.
im sick of this. sometimes i just wished that they chase me out. so that i can use it as an excuse to move away.
this suck.

2008-03-31T21:09:00.003+08:00

lighthoused last night with kel and gang. it has been a long time since we went. and kel said that the flow is back again. haha! and it was the 1st time that so many pple went. once i stepped in, all came and shook my hands! for wad?! to congrat me for the semis. HAHA ok. it's kel's and adan's gd work. but THANKS ANW PPLE!

drank quite abit cos i kept losing in 5-10. and plus the previous night, there's MOS too.
and all these drinking = stomachache the next morning.
haha. dunno whether related anot la. just that i kept on running to the gents in camp today.
and today is really fucked up. SO MANY PATIENTS. bloody hell.
lucky im on 2 days leave this week. otherwise...

haha. ok im gone again
(:

sing with me, sing for the years
sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
sing it with me, just for today
maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take u away..

2008-03-24T00:56:00.000+08:00

I SWEAR

this is one of the funniest thing i've seen

2008-03-23T11:48:00.001+08:00

yeayea. im in e the semis of sing out. so is collin! well done bro!
lets keep it up.
ok. time to buy new shoes and all. and of course. more practices.
heh. so no more clubbing for now.
go go jacky go go collin.

2008-03-08T13:05:00.001+08:00

kaba modern is awesome.

2008-03-05T19:41:00.002+08:00

it has started raining again. think im sensitive to rain. everytime it rains, i will get moody la, get flu and all. haha. but still, it's a nice weather for slping aint it?

im so tired. has been slping late these days,
and im lazy to blog. im jus here typing some words for the sake of it actually. ha
byebye.

it just makes me wanna do better and be stronger.
thanks for the advices pple. (:

2008-02-27T19:37:00.002+08:00

Lucky Color:Mustard
Personality Strengths:Attractiveness, Knowledge
Personality Weakness(es):Impatience
Successful Career Path:Music
Sense of Humor Style:Slapstick
Adjectives to Describe You:impulsive, upredictable

Description:A hip non-conformist who truly stands for his/her beliefs - you are out to make a difference in this world, and you have a realistic chance of success. You have always been self-driven and derive your inspiration from those close to you. Ambitious - and why shouldn't you be - the sky is the limit for you!

gt the above frm an application frm facebook. posted it here cos i find it quite true! haha

2008-02-26T19:56:00.002+08:00

edden txt me ytd, saying that that his friends have a band, and they are thinkin of joining the superband competition. and he asked if im interested to join them.
well, 1stly i dont have the stage presence.
2ndly, i dunno if im a band person. cos the type of music they play might not be suit what i can sing. there are only limited genres of songs that i can sing.
but in the end, i said ok. no harm giving a try and he said he will update me again. so ya
hope everything will turn out gd!

2008-02-25T19:38:00.002+08:00

kinda lazy to blog these days. and plus my uncle hogging onto the comp, i have even lesser chance to come online. well, nt that much of a difference thou.

hmm, luckily my throat has become better, after drinking tons of water. haha. ok. probably not tons. but gallons
and i still yet to choose a song for the quarters. shortlisted a few thou. well, will see how. and stupid kelvin showed the youtube videos to his colleague. DAMN. he ought to be punched.

actually nth much these few days la.
i have a freakin boring life u see. haha

to you,
i didnt try my best.
whats the use when u are almost non-existent?

2008-02-20T19:58:00.002+08:00

Sandy came back to spore ard 2 days ago. so met up with him with kelvin and rico. with to town for Jumper. wasnt really a great show. or maybe i was tired cos it's a midnight movie, and after 1 whole day of work. Then the nxt day, which was ytd, went to airport to see him off. Kel fetched us there. went terminal 3 for the 1st time. really damn big. dunno for wad. Cos it isnt very crowded or busy leh. But still, the place is quite nice and longggg. ha

Anw, back to some updates.
Collin and i went to join a mini singing comp organised by music story. Evelyn's school. Glyn's sis is also teaching over there. qualified for the quarters. and now comes the prob of choosing songs. I can never choose the correct song for myself. so this time, i must decide properly. furthermore, as im typing here, i can feel that im getting sick la. dwn with flu and cough. dunno wad's nxt. and the quarters will be on 8th Mar. hope everything will be ok.

ok. back to slp.
ac vs aresenal later.

2008-02-13T22:12:00.002+08:00

valentine's day is just another day. or maybe im just being sour.
walking ard, even when it's not yet valentine's, you can see pple carrying bouquets of flowers almost everywhere.
and it's then when you will somehow wish that there's a place where your heart belongs.
but for me, it's just for that moment.
the inner me trying to find a place to hide. maybe going back home and not wanting to see the lovey dovey couples ard saying 'i love you' to each other.

but again, it's just me. i have yet to celebrate vda before. hahaha. obvious reason is because everytime is vday, i will be single. but will still hang out with my single friends la!
well, have been thru many r/s. but all ended up in failure

Sarah- can be counted as my 1st gf. in sec sch. haha! young and dumb. tt's wad how i see r/s in sec sch. it was funny too. but yes, puppy love is always funny and innocent.

Jayne- wad i can say abt us? everything ended quite badly.i feel guilty for eveything that happened. n it was the 1st time i see myself as a coward, for running away.

Lina- another stupid r/s that i have been in. no pt talking abt it.

Jacqueline-it dragged on and many things happened in between. finally gt together, but yet finding ourselves at loggerheads again. stupid. bad temper jacky messed it up again.

Isabell-the shortest r/s among all. but yet, the one which made me fell the hardest and learnt the most. all the stupid things i have done that lead to the ending of this r/s is really too hard to bear for her. and of course, for me. saying that i have learnt is of no use. the old saying, action speaks louder than words.

in between this short r/s are also some pple which i have missed. this shows how am i a loser in r/s. but well, r/s aint everything. at least for now.

take the chances as i go.
happy valentines' pple

2008-02-11T21:38:00.000+08:00

Stop and Stare by One Republic

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of usI
t's time to make our move, I'm shaking off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
"Never glance" is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're trying to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

2008-02-11T16:12:00.000+08:00

cny hols is almost over. HUAT HUAT HUAT AR
but ang pow ka-ching not tt much. angpow inflation i guess? haha. back to work and studies pple! lets patiently wait for the nxt holiday. hahaha im sooo tired right now. slp late almost everynight. play game la. gamble la (and never win)
haha. wad a loser.
chatted with chrisma on msn till 5 plus in the morning. loads of nonsense from her. hahaha
stupid 梁朝伟 HAHA
gotta eat more and grw fat!
gotta go under the sun more and get tan!

anw, went for my knee c/up today. nth much. still the same old thing..hai
off to take a nap.

2008-02-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

FUCK MSN!

2008-02-07T13:17:00.000+08:00

it's chinese new year and im not into the mood.
im feeling bored!
maybe cos the money aint rolling in yet. heheh

2008-02-06T11:50:00.000+08:00

just gt a news from evelyn
that the registration for xing guang da dao 3 is closed! i was really sad eh.
really really. but come to think of it. even if i DO qualify, still have to go taiwan. and i cant!
1.no passport
2.still in NS
hahaha. so no point. but i do feel wasted for huiwen and collin la. it's like so strange. that i didn even see or hear the news abt how to join this competition anywhere! or maybe im one real 'sua gu' la. but nvm. xing guang is of such high standard that i wont even make it la.
so its ok jacky!!

today is chinese new yr's eve!
get ready for reunion dinner pple!
have fun
and YES! ktv with the usual gang later!

2008-01-30T21:58:00.000+08:00

had IQA 2 today at my dental centre, where the head frm MMI came dwn to do inspection and ask loads of questions. Reached the center and knew that Dr Weirdo Boh was on mc, so which means im the 'free' man. i have to answer most of Mdm Lee's (which is the inspector) questions. luckily i was able to cope. otherwise, i will be sabotaging my guys and of course mdm ho and chan. all damn kan-jiong abt the test la. haha. but everything went quite smoothly i can say. only some mistakes here and there, which i think is quite common also.

TIRED! nabei. haha. walk here and there. and the clot behind my knee is still there. and it hurts now and then. shit la. cant wait for the nxt appt. see how i will argue with that freakin doc.

tmr ktv.
maybe MOS. nas's birthday. the king of kings.
fri kusu island on a chinese junk cruise. -.-
so fun.
wow

BYEBYE

2008-01-27T13:20:00.001+08:00

eh seriously la. i can't imagine walking for the whole day ard vivo and twn and not getting clothings that i want. duno whether if it's my own fashion prob or wad? haha. seems like nth caught my eye. either that.. it's really way tooo expensive. those that i wanted to buy before are gone! so no choice.. will jus have to wait for nicer clothes to come out.

watched Mr.Rambo ytd. He is still as fit as ever. haha. the killings effects were damn nice. but it was really a short movie. 1 hr. wow
Inside the film showed the killings and the genocides that were happening inside Burma. and i was thinking, wtf is going wrong with the world. killin humans as if it was a game.
cos there was this certain part where it showed the burmese soldiers asking their captives to walk thru a piece of ricefield while the soldiers were throwing in landmines at the same time. And so, the soldiers were betting which poor guy will step onto the landmine. they are treating it as a game! wtf. and i think for once pple had hope that a person like rambo exist. hahaha

STOP VIOLENCE!!

2008-01-26T01:20:00.000+08:00

愛在
曲: 方大同詞: 周耀輝

買了菜她跟他慢慢的炒著菜
他為她趕回家走得快愛無處不在
可是呼之卻不來

小陽台她拿走死掉的小盆栽
他對著啤酒杯等下載
愛無處不在可是到處有悲哀

愛在大街上小路上每個人海
誰卻愛在小島上不願離開
難道愛在不該愛的時候才愛
就算百步以外總有愛在愛在

我愛在黃昏看誰的瀏海
你愛在清早打誰的領帶
我們都要愛偏偏無法同在不能明白只能夠期待愛無處不在

那是愛到頭來也發現這是愛
流淚的微笑的都是愛
管它好與壞總是呼之卻不來雪花白永遠都渴望看桃花開
梁山伯辜負了祝英台
在何年何代總是到處有悲哀

愛在陽光下燭光下每點塵埃
誰卻愛在黑暗裡不願離開
難道愛在不該愛的時候才愛
就算百步以外總有愛在愛在

我愛在黃昏看誰的瀏海
你愛在清早打誰的
領帶我們都要愛偏偏無法同在
不能明白只能夠期待愛無處不在

從來微風都靠樹枝搖擺
從來種子都靠春泥破開
所有人世間的美好都存在
就算看不到都依然存在
在意料之外

我的女孩你快走過來愛在期待 (愛在愛在)
愛無處不在我們無處不在愛

2008-01-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

heh heh heh.

high 5 besty!

2008-01-23T19:50:00.000+08:00

went ktv last night with besty and collin. had a great time singing! then we were singing all the xing guang da dao's song. some of them were old songs. n we were talking abt how talented they are. besty also let us listen to some songs frm Big Bang. they are from korea and they are damn young and talented. really.. and i was thinking. why cant spore have this kind of talent in singing and songwriting. the best i think we ever have is JJ Lin. really. we shld have more pple coming up.

Gary Cao. His voice is really magnificent. Strong and clear. Being shy in nature, he normally expresses himself by singing. one can really feel him when he sings. really like it when he sings A*Mei songs. aiya. bottom line, he is really good. especially when he sings live. wow. hahaha.

AND! who are the pple on top?? they are the 3 other singers in my life! haha. they are Mathilda, Glynis and Collin! We have been singing together since when? yr 1? aiya. since we known each other, which is ard.. 4yrs ago. Collin was frm my class when i was in yr 1.Still rmb the 1st time we went ktv was at cck kbox, after the sch sports day. we went with our classmates then. and tt was the 1st time i went ktv too. was pretty excited. once they started singing, i was like
"wow, they can really sing.. esp. collin."
hahaha. and at the time, they kept saying i sang like jay chou. so funny la. after that outing, we will go ktv frequently la. tt's how i roughly know that collin can sing.

then came to knowing besty and glyn. i think it was on besty's birthday chalet. i dont even know who she was back then and i jus happily went. hahah! but of course i went with yun and cherie they all. collin went too.
oh ya!
and we started singing non-stop over there. hahaha! like not shy at all.
Since then, we started to get abit closer la. going ktv and all. and of course, i will never forget the conference phone calls that we had. Singing on the phone in the middle of the night. hahahaha! it really makes me laughing when thinking abt it now man.

But seriously, ALL of them are really gd in singing la.
Collin-powerful vocals, full of emotions
Besty-what can i say about her? it's so wasted she doesnt perform on stage.
Glyn-sweet voice, great backup skills. haha! and of course, straightfoward but useful comments.

I rmb when i joined singing competitions ( which i really feel dumb when i recalled abt it now), they will be the ones giving me advices and all. they even hear me sing and point out my mistakes! oh well, it's not that their advices ain't good, but i didnt win any cos i wasn't gd enuff!! i needed more training. hahahaha

till now, we are still having occasional ktv sessions. but obviously, not that often since everyone have their own commitments.
collin's working, im in army, and glyn and besty are schooling.
but still going ktv with them are still one of the most enjoyable time i can have, and it will always be. now that collin is having singing lessons, of course i hope to join him. and u know. going further and further. haha.

Singing is really one thing that i love, so i just wanna get better. i know i have to be realistice enough to know that i can't carve out a career in singing, esp in spore. but it's my passion. i don't look foward to becoming a star or anything like that! Pls dont get me wrong ok.

it's jus not a crime to do smth u like.
and for me, that is to sing.

2008-01-23T19:30:00.000+08:00

ytd was shit. gt home frm yishun after ktv with besty and collin. the stupid went frm the wrong way. NVM. he went to jalan kayu. i almost asked him to stop at rico's house and just let me spend the night there. but of course i didnt la. and after that.. i saw him fallin aslp while driving on the highway!! and he nearly bang into another car. craziness. after exiting the highway.. i asked him to stop immediately and got out of the car after paying him. before alighting, i said :"eh. wanna slp go home slp. dont slp till u die on the car can?"
lol. i know it's kinda mean. but pls.. his life as well as other passengers lives will be at stake. but i bet i was lucky enough not to meet into any accident la.

anw.. ytd ktv was damn fun. one of the best session we ever had. only that glyn wasnt able to join us! SO SORRY LA! soon soon k? we gonna sing more. hahaha. and im waiting for the vids collin and besty.

2008-01-21T20:34:00.000+08:00

无辜-曹格

也许这是最后的考验当我再度遇见了你
是命运捆绑了我们还是爱情相信了记忆
你的欺骗没有让我掉下眼泪
爱本善变的痛楚并非你的罪

爱是无辜的风筝
拉着最在乎的人
情已逝我还在
注定一个人流浪
爱是断线的风筝
挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中一步步的坠落红尘

给不起的是你的天真为了他你学会否认
不承认你给过青春曾经爱过我的每一分
我多伤心宁成全你和他的吻
只好对自己的痛楚不负责任

爱是无辜的风筝
拉着最在乎的人
情已逝我还在
注定一个人流浪
爱是断线的风筝
挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中一步步的坠落红尘
无法挽救的温存

我是残破的风筝
宁愿在遥远的天空
看你转过身决定去实现你和他的承诺

2008-01-19T01:16:00.000+08:00

just reached home from fish head curry at jalan kayu with kel rico and lq. before that.. was at cini and caught Cloverfield. haha! it's not really a dumb show. it's quite nice in fact. but only that the whole show was shot using a videocam. u know.. the blair witch project type. but it's definitely much better that BWP. haha.. why? cos of the stunnin effects and the storyline. the action jus keeps going till the end. which the irony part is.. there's no ending to the story. it doesnt tell you wad happened in the end. the cam jus went off like that. haha. abrupt huh? but i think u guys shld catch it. But i dont think it's suitable for those who will get dizzy by looking the shaking motion. i got dizzy for awhile too.
and that stupid kel kept on driving like that.. saying he was still dizzy. so he drove left and right on the highway. crazy! lucky he wasnt drunk. otherwise i wont be updatin now. heh
and oh ya!
jus now we saw this HOTTTT girl at cini. which turned out to be lq's fren's fren. and frm then on, lq and kel went bonkers. keep on saying they are willing to do anything just to go out with her. HAHA. and all the nonsense start coming out. but the truth is.. she's really hot. hahahaha.

then came the best joke of all.
lq asked :" is rou gu mei (bak kut girl from huang jing lu) related to harry potter?:
fuck! i just laughed and nearly choked on my rice. haha! cos bakkut girl gt a scar on the forehead too. jus like mr harry
AIYA! u all must watch HUANG JING LU then will know la! monday will be the finale!
heh.

ok. signing off here.
GOOD NIGHT

2008-01-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

this wall of mine is breakin.
from unwanted emotions that is hard to bear.
they say life is game and we humans are the players.
but there is this loser in me
which seems to lose all sense of direction.
a better sense of living shall be my resolution this yr.

2008-01-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

heh. at rico's house now. just going there to slack la. and anw..smth bad happened at home. so didnt really wanna coop at home. when there may be a possibility of things going to get worse.
oh well.. bad things has been happening. so im not really suprised by what's coming. it's so taxing.. to a point that i just wanna let everything go. irritating.
and my leg.. AIYO!
seriously. fuck the doc. you're not helping at all. argh
lalallalalala.
im bored.
bye

2008-01-15T19:58:00.000+08:00

If i had eyes in the back of my head
i would have told you that you looked good
as i walked away

And if you could tried to trust the hand that fed
you would've never been hungry
But you never really be

The more of this or less of this or is there any difference
or are we just holding onto things that we don't have anymore

Sometimes time doesn't heal
no, not at all
just stand still, while we fall
In or out of love again, I doubt im gonna win you back
when you got eyes like that
it won't let me in
always looking out

2008-01-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO COLLIN!! hope u like the wallet. thou i didnt choose it. was jus asked to share. heh. wen dinner with his panjang kakis and meilian was there too. went marina sq to eat at this jap restaurant. wah. the mango ice is a definite classic. after then we went bowling! but mr "clever" jacky bowl! when his knee aint fully heal yet! and he is suffering the consequences now. -puller hamstring.
FREAKING PAIN. nw i know why hamstring injury will take so long to heal alrd. but all of us did have fun la. haha

then back to today.. there's students visit from NUS. the future dentists. wah i tell u pple. GO ViSIT DENTISTS REGULARLY. cos some of them are hot. i meant the girls duh. hahaha!
okok. i need to go pack my cupboard again. BYEBYE